This time, sweeter.

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

aloha!

_kne, bouncy#o2, flupper, princessee, greenpea.

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our romance

_kne and her big bro

from manda

down and^

bouncy#o2

rockus.

why bother? aren't i but a speck? if im not needed, throw me out. im negligible, unimportant, insignificant and not needed. who truly loves me? i need to know. im never par, always below it. im so shot down. i've tried my best, given all i could give, but im never there. my grades show that i don't belong to the class at all. my grades show that i should be at some gangster school. my presence during projects is negligible, im worth nothing to them. why am i even here? i want to be blown away by the wind.. to some far off land to be on my own.

6:59 PM;

Saturday, February 25, 2006

aloha!

Light and colour fades from the day
And there is nothing left to look forward to
When night falls but I'm still astray
Can't you see that I need you

I'm running a twenty-four hour marathon
Three hundred and sixty-five days a year
Going without rest for the longest time, an eon
Chasing you around the clock, my destination's clear

But no matter how hard I race
You flee away in the dead of the night
Your footsteps get harder and harder to trace
Why have you turned away from my harsh plight

Sleep, my dearest friend, you're never there to let me take a break
I needed you, but you left me, and now I'm forever awake.
- the Darkening Dawn, in lament of her shattered frienship with what was once her closest companion - Sleep.

4:40 PM;

aloha!

this is to all wonderful science geeks:
the fantastic periodic table!
haha. yayeness =)

3:35 PM;

Friday, February 24, 2006

i hate darkness. i hate black. i hate anger, selfishness, depression, self centeredness, self pity, and all things dark. i hate falling, i hate failing. i hate to see people like that.
i hate darkness, but im burning out. i need to go back to Start.

11:00 PM;

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

aloha!

this is smth manda dearest wants me to do =)

Seven qualities i want in a potential spouse:
#1 LOVES GOD
#2 FEARS GOD
#3 loves me
#4 understands me
#5 cheers me up
#6 counsels me
#7 equal yoke

Seven things that scares me:
#7 drifting away from the Road
#6 dishonouring Him
#5 being friendless
#4 feeling unloved
#3 nothing
#2 nothing
#1 nothing

Seven random songs:
#1 evermore (planetshakers)
#2 who am i (casting crowns)
#3 God of wonder (mac powell)
#4 consuming fire (tim hughs)
#5 one way (hillsong)
#6 mg school song
#7 majula singapura

Seven Things i like most:
#7 being homeworkless
#6 feeling wanted
#5 being happy
#4 hugging
#3 PLH
#2 mgs
#1 friends

Seven important things in my bedroom:
#1 my bed
#2 my flobber (vday gift not yet given from manda)
#3 my clothes
#4 my piglet (from my bro)
#5 chickenn
#6 my aircon
#7 the 2 thick thick files im so proud of that contain all my sec1 work

Seven random facts abt me:
#7 im a human (but what does that mean?)
#6 im not interested in guys for bfs yet, but i want them as friend =)
#5 i don't like to be manipulated
#4 i prefer to blend in to the crowd
#3 i think alot, but no one really knows
#2 i know im really blur
#1 my favourite colour is NOT pink. XD

Seven things i plan to do before i die:
#1 read the whole Bible
#2 go on a missions trip
#3 get married!
#4 get a few phDs
#5 stay awake for 24 hours on a hill somewhere with someone
#6 feel like the whole world loves me
#7 get some good well paying decent job

Seven things i can do:
#7 pray
#6 make friends
#5 love
#4 understand
#3 listen
#2 infer (?)
#1 sms

Seven words i say most:
#1 haha
#2 heya
#3 wl
#4 heyy
#5 aloha
#6 darn
#7 ohmygoodness!

and i skipped the last one cos i don't think anyone's gonna do this XD haha
you may want to start triple-clicking on my blog posts. XD

5:17 PM;

Sunday, February 19, 2006

aloha!
"pass it to me"
this is why i haven't been online for so long (im gonna pretend somebody actually cares) :
1. on thurs, i was studying for geog, redoing all my ws in the math file and math ws's.
2.i went for camp on friday and it ended on saturday
3. then i went for funOrama
4. then i went out to eat
5. then i tried to make roses (and ended up sleeping at 2)
6. then i had to go to church at 7.30am
7. and stayed till 2-ish

haha. i miss msn la. the GB camp was so draggy.
oh! i love love the shirt i bought at funorama! hahaha. but i felt so extra when i wore it to the sportsday. i was gonna wear the white church camp shirt, but i was wearing black. hahaha. the funorama shirt was pink.. slightly better, but extra baggy.

3:35 PM;

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

A Valentine's Day Prayer

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.” – I CORINTHIANS 13:4-7 NIV

Lord,Because love is patient…
Help me to be slow to judge, but quick to listen.
Hesitant to criticize, but eager to encourage,remembering your endless patience with me.

Because love is kind…
Help my words to be gentle and my actions to be thoughtful.
Remind me to smile and to say
"Please" and "Thank You" because those little things still mean so much.

Because love does not envy or boast, and it is not proud…
Help me have a heart that is humble and sees the good in others.
May I celebrate and appreciate all that I have and all that I am, as well as doing the same for those around me.

Because love is not rude or self-seeking…
Help me to speak words that are easy on the ear and on the heart.
When I'm tempted to get wrapped up in my own little world, remind me there's a great big world out there full of needs and hurts.

Because love is not easily angered and keeps no record of wrongs…
Help me to forgive others as you have forgiven me.
When I want to hold onto a grudge, gently help me release it so I can reach out with a hand of love instead.

Because love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth…
Help me stand up for what is right and good.
May I defend the defenseless, and help the helpless.
Show me how I can make a difference.

Because love always protects and always trusts…
Help me to be a refuge for those around me.
When the world outside is harsh and cold, may my heart be a place of acceptance and warmth.

Finally, because love always perseveres…
Help my heart continually beat with love for You and others.
Thank you for this day when we celebrate love, and for showing us what that word really means.

Amen.
happy belated vday! =) [my 100th post]

8:29 PM;

Monday, February 13, 2006

aloha!

these are the things to do on valentines day:
1.always remember to turn off your handphone at all times
2.never respond to your calls from the homephone. you're always "out"
3.if you couldn't help but want to answer anyone, say that you're on a date already.
4.refrain from using msn. but if it's urgent, appear away.
5.remember that love isn't always between a guy and a girl
6.don't pay attention to your parents (or whoever). they may do more eeky things that usual.
7.use "lovemenot" for your msn nick
8.eat as much chocolate as possible
9.engross yourself in the most boring things. (eg. studying history)
10. talk to friends of the same gender only.

yup. and we shall all be lonely solitaire creatures. (who study history) haha. not to fear! just read the BIBLE! you're taken. haha =)

6:55 PM;

Saturday, February 11, 2006

aloha!

Wings of Freedom

A pale light grows in the horizon,
tender, quiet,
like a verse, like a chant,
it meant all that.

The wind awakes me
softly combing my feathers,
just passing by, not stopping,
racing towards new lands.

I'm awake,
awake enough to feel the beat,
the torch, the beacon, the fire,
the freedom inside me.

I'm free,
I'm free to do as I please.
My wings grow high,
a smile dances in my face.

I'm free, I'm free
the words won't leave me.
The day has come, and I'm free.
Free to dance, free to feel, free to fly.

I open my wings wide.
A jump and a gust at the same time.
And there I am, gliding fast,
with the wind through the sky.

I'm free, I keep repeating to myself,
I'm free to fly, to smile, to laugh,
a free me, soaring the skies.

XD. i did 3 blogskins. this one, the pr one and the zebraconfused homepage. =) im so proud of myself. hahaha.
oh well. i have GOT to remember to bring my tambourine tmr. hahaha =) stay safe during the trip k kor? God bless!

9:59 PM;

Friday, February 10, 2006

aloha!

introducing! *drum rolls* the new ZEBRACONFUSED HOMEPAGE! XDDD everyone! go tag! =) the link is together with all the other links. (notice that the colour scheme im usong today is the colour scheme of the new blog)
you know. i don't want to be loved or liked because of how people think i look. i think it's very shallow. isn't it silly that almost all the "i love you" songs guys write have to do with the girl being "beautiful"? it's a stark contrast against the songs the women sing. comments like "you are so pretty.", "you look beautiful today" and "your smile is like blar blar" are nice to hear and definitely most welcome, but if that's all someone can say about me, i would be rather upset.
do people enjoy causing pain? maybe not. but we do enjoy the response we get from our other friends when we hurt someone in a "funny" way don't we? i wish it would stop.
anyway, on a happier note, WE SAT THROUGH 4 TESTS AT ONE GO. well almost. =) the chinese test and the math quiz were done yesterday. we did chem assesment and the history test today. somehow, i have a good feeling about the history test, but im confident i'll fail chinese and math.
also, im sick. *sneezescoughsrubsback* missed gb today because of it. i hope i get better by tmr though. i can't miss the leadership conference and i don't want to feel like going home in the middle of it.

8:39 PM;

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

aloha!

who's gonna ask me about that box where babelfish was? haha. *mysterious look*
ohmygoodness. xiaohaibuben2 was AWESOME. i never cried watching a movie till now. it wasn't the "so sad, im gonna cry" type of sob, it was more the "aww. aww. aww." type of sob. X) if i had the choice, i would watch it 5 times. the rating: 6/5 (or more) MANDA! we shall buy the vcd/dvd and bring it to church camp =) then cry the whole night. hahaha
sigh. but now im quite dead. this is the long long story. it all started on the 16th of jan, i brought back my file to study (i didn't study in the end, but that's not the point) and to get it signed. i went back to school the next day. a few days later, i ponder: what happened to my math file? i wanna file my worksheets. so i search. and search, and search and search.
"what the." i can't find it. i've looked everywhere, searched at home and in school (it couldn't be at church could it?) i've asked around, and guess what. my dad says he never saw the file, not even after i presumably passed it to him. then i became sway yesterday and mrs poh wanted to check my file. (another "what the.") but today, i told her i forgot all about it. (to tell you the truth, i actually did) im supposed to pass it to her tmr, and i don'r have my file, i don't have all my worksheets from the first 2 weeks of school and im so dead.
so now, im absolutely befounded--it couldn't have just disappeared right? right? ohno. howwww? i think im so dead. "never mess with a pregnant woman" ohh. this is gonna be bad.

4:58 PM;

Thursday, February 02, 2006

aloha!

today was so weirdandfunky-fied haha (new word!) it started with the really cool PE X) haha i learnt how to dodge! *gaspsmouthdropsfaints* haha. i was so tired after it, but it was cool =)
so then we had hmt. first the test, then the topic. hahaha. mgs with guys?!
then off to homecons. *hears something in the background* "you all arh. cannot handle 2 dishes! aiya. next week give you 1 only"
haha. so i was boiling water - and i wanted tolift the cap, but it was so hot.. so i covered it with a cloth and tried again. it was still hot. smoke started to appear, so i was like.. funkeh. haha. i removed the cloth, and smoke was still coming out from it. so i was like. "ooh." XD
people started screaming. "ohmygosh kat! it's burning!" hahahha
"where? where?" i could only see the smoke. then i flipped it over.
"WAAH." and i started waving it around. (it works with a match doesn't it? the flame wears out) *wave wave*
"PUT.IT.IN.THE.SINK.KAT." ohyea. X) hahahha. and the teacher says "aiyoh. you'all arh. don't know how to practice safety precautions." wtv =)
we ended at 2.30, half and hour later than normal. pffft.
so at 3 (or so) we went to sakae! whee. yumm. we were comparing how much we could eat (the goal was 50) but i am pretty lousy at that XD. so poor javan.

8:44 PM;

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

aloha!

HAPPY BELATED CNY
hope you collected lots and lots of cash and ap ^^ im so glad it's back to normal. people seem happier than they were. haha.
ohman. i haven't updated for the longest time X) no one pushed me to (no incentive+ no time = no updates) im very tempted to close this blog or something - to kill it. no one reads my blogs posts anyway. or do they? post on my tagboard if you do =)
hmm. i cooked dinner for my family yest X) it was really really funny cos we only bought the ingredients and all at 5plus. haha. my grandma was coming at 7 and we started cooking at 6plus. haha.
so yea. i cooked the thai food we learnt at homecons. it was quite yummy, but i think we overcooked. which here means to cook too much food =) too bad it was too nice and everyone stuffed it down anyway. haha. plus! no one had stomach aches or whatever. quite contrary to what kor said. X) what ambulance? haha
so during the great family reunion, my cousins and i really bonded. we told lots of riddles (you know, the mrt one and the baabaa one?) and had a great time laughing and laughing at the people trying to solve it. haha. i learnt quite a few, but i knew quite a few too X) thanks justin. haha
kk. i should go =) byebye

8:34 PM;