Friday, March 31, 2006
im afraid. i can't.. i can't..
i've got to go.

Thursday, March 30, 2006

aloha!

this is weird, typing what i don't feel. i won't type aloha anymore i think.
many people are important to me, so important, they have their own users. if i am as important to them, they would try, try to find that passage. do tag.
you know, we don't have 2 selfs, the "inner" and the "outer". we have 3. the one we hide from most people, the one we think we show others, and the one others think we are. i mean, if i were actually sad, and trying to show it, i would think that would be my outer self, but then later on, someone may come up to you and say, "what time did you sleep ast night? you look tired." it was like that during the Great Depression of 2005.
this is so weird.password.joanne.aaron.shona.jaime.kurt.

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

aloha!

Goodbye My Lover
james blunt
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,

You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.


obscurity` kat; says:
wanna know what i did yest and today?
'aaron sometimes...life just sux.. says:
?
'aaron sometimes...life just sux.. says:
wad did u do?
obscurity` kat; says:
i had an RMBR attachment!
'aaron sometimes...life just sux.. says:
wad's tad?
'aaron sometimes...life just sux.. says:
haha
'aaron sometimes...life just sux.. says:
=x
obscurity` kat; says:
a raffles museum of biological sciences attachment
obscurity` kat; says:
haha
'aaron sometimes...life just sux.. says:
oo
'aaron sometimes...life just sux.. says:
cool
'aaron sometimes...life just sux.. says:
hw was it?
obscurity` kat; says:
ahha
obscurity` kat; says:
cool
obscurity` kat; says:
im having for one more day
obscurity` kat; says:
=)
'aaron sometimes...life just sux.. says:
really?
'aaron sometimes...life just sux.. says:
issit fun?
obscurity` kat; says:
yest we cleaned bird skeletons and sorted bird feathers and sorted bugs and put them into alchohol to preserve them
obscurity` kat; says:
hahaha
obscurity` kat; says:
so that day was fun
'aaron sometimes...life just sux.. says:
er
'aaron sometimes...life just sux.. says:
haha
'aaron sometimes...life just sux.. says:
fun?
'aaron sometimes...life just sux.. says:
shivers
obscurity` kat; says:
until i got a headache from inhaling too much alchohol
obscurity` kat; says:
hahaha
obscurity` kat; says:
yea it is!
obscurity` kat; says:
once you get used to it
obscurity` kat; says:
today was boring tho
obscurity` kat; says:
we were doing plants
obscurity` kat; says:
so we learnt how to press them
'aaron sometimes...life just sux.. says:
*laughs*
obscurity` kat; says:
and "learnt" how to collect them
obscurity` kat; says:
sigh
obscurity` kat; says:
super boring la
obscurity` kat; says:
haha
'aaron sometimes...life just sux.. says:
tad was..abit primary sch..haha..young botanist
obscurity` kat; says:
oh yea!
obscurity` kat; says:
haha
obscurity` kat; says:
oh!
obscurity` kat; says:
then we went to changi beach to collect specimens
obscurity` kat; says:
then we were up to our knees in water, and we had wellingtons on
obscurity` kat; says:
but they got sandy and wet
obscurity` kat; says:
and the edges started to rub agains our legs, and it was painful
obscurity` kat; says:
ohman. im talking so much
obscurity` kat; says:
XD
'aaron sometimes...life just sux.. says:
haha
'aaron sometimes...life just sux.. says:
e beach is fun!
obscurity` kat; says:
yea!
obscurity` kat; says:
it's like
obscurity` kat; says:
we were supposed to collect plants, but we ended up collecting shells and examining hermit crabs
'aaron sometimes...life just sux.. says:
ooo
obscurity` kat; says:
yea!
obscurity` kat; says:
the tide was really low
'aaron sometimes...life just sux.. says:
haha

feel better soon =)

Sunday, March 26, 2006

aloha!

Severe Suffering Singapore School Student Syndrome
woe is me!
(and you,all you fellow P-O-Ws)
projects long overdue
(not our fault, this be true)
always more in the queue
no one has a clue
of what we're going through
faces turning blue
we all got the flu
glasses askew
stoning like a statue
brains like tofu
eyebags the wrong hue
sleep we eschew
blankets growing mildew
no time to renew
our minds a stew
destroying our IQ
over work we argue
demolishing our EQ
we're sick of all this hoodoo!
and yet they take all these as their miscue
to further burden this poor crew
is there no rescue?
as each new deadline makes its debut
we all know we're gonna go cuckoo
now whip out your tissue
soon we'll all say adieu.
woe is me, woe is you.- the Darkening Dawn
---------
they come in pairs, the workers
they come with spades and shovels
and they dig.
they dig for minutes, hours, days, years
most dig for five years or so.
they continue digging
but now they have companions.
little ones.but no worries, they get bigger all the time
the companions sit by the edge of the pit and wait.
they wait.
after ten more years
the pit is ready to be filled.
so the diggers gather around the edge of the pit
and throw in whatever they think may fill it up completely.
they throw in paper, mostly books and documents. articles. guidebooks.
after that there is still a little bit of space left.
it was always meant to be filled with...the companions
so the diggers, they seize the companions
and hurl them into the pit.
unceremoniously, without warning.
now the companionsthey are left to dig through the mess.
they dig, oh yes they dig.but they have more to dig.
they must deepen the holeeven though they stand in it.
that is the nature of the Pit.to be brought up to dig
dig, such that you might be trapped in it.
and when you find your partner
you too will throw in your little companion
and he will digsuch that he will be trapped in it.
such is the education system.- the Darkening Dawn

im such a fan.

Friday, March 24, 2006

aloha!

i can't say GB's the best cca, but i can say it does help us grow.
come read our blog! it's a forced one, but it's ok anyway. haha
http://estherfez-west.blogspot.com/

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

aloha!

a long time, a long time.
how were the hols?
why ask?
so have you finished your homework?
need you repeat your question?

oh. so i went to bangkok (not bankok) from thurs to sat. you know, i think the projects are getting the better of me or something. i thought bangkok (not bankok) was in hongkong. XD then erm. my parents corrected me with much exasperation in their voice. then later on, i found out bangkok was spelled bangkok (not bankok), during the last minute too, thanks aaron. ahha
bangkok is nice. not high-class nice, but friendly nice. the people there are really good looking, a notable feature. the things are cheap and good, and the hotel i stayed in was cosy, comfortable and much better than the ones in yunnan/china etc. i bought 4 bags, and the whole world knows that. 3 handbags and a schoolbag, all of which i totally love. i bought cheap necklaces that don't look cheap, cheap earrings that weren't so cheap and lots and lots of clothes and stuff. awesome.
so anyway, i really wonder how i got the time to blog. i really should be rushing like mad through all the projects and all, but i really don't know la. im too tired for any of that. maybe after this, i'll drag my feet up the stairs and attempt to do math or geog. i want to sleep earlier today, which means before 2. yeah.
so far, the tally for the no. of people im bringing for GIGS is 0.
that about explains everything. it's not as if i didn't try.
did you know that you only have one life to live? we are only contained to ourselves, we don't live the life our best friend lives, nor the life of the people you want to be, or sympathise with. we are contained to ourselves. it's a strange feeling, waking up to realise that you can't redo the things you did yesterday, or the day before, or anytime before later. we can't turn back time, things that have passed have passed, they won't be relived again. and so, people are the same. once they're gone, we will never see the body reanimate again, unless ofcourse, God permits, but that hardly happens. when the person you love is gone, there won't ever be another chance to say i love you.

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

oh yes, before i forget.

manda and i have totally announced that we aren't sad anymore. XDD
yaye.

aloha!

haha. yaye!(?) it's the hols.
im not gonna waste time lamenting on the horrors of the homework aka 8 projects the teachers have so joyfully loaded us with. no. i am not. =)
this is so funny. everytime i look at the loginpage of blogger, i think of the time i signed up for it. it was probably last last last year and i picture myself in the office, terribly excited as i tried out this thing called a blog. XD it's really funny, come to think of it.
oh well. today jong and i went surveying at jubilee, amk. it was really fast, amkians are much more friendly than orchard goers. it's like, practically anyone we dared to stop didn't mind doing our surveys. i was a little afraid that they couldn't speak english, so i was a little wary of the people i chose. X) jong and i ended up with 68% of the forms being filled up by students, all under 18.
it's really strange the way most of jong's forms were filled by guys and mine were filled by ladies. hahaha. really strange. XD

Thursday, March 02, 2006

i don't belong here. why can't i just leave?
i need someone i can cry with. i miss you.