Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Heyya(:
Let's make this an official un-emo post.

Guess who made this! I got him to add wings. Haha, yes. All this during bio in the lab. Yayy. It's really adorable. And cara drew the heart.

Ah yes, creator: Divij. Thank you if you're reading this.

Ah yes, and we played dog and bone with 06 this morning. Haha, loss quite badly, but nvm. Divij got two! Haha! I got 0. The class got 6 (vs 8). Hurrah for us.

Lynna, new seat partner. Very tired. Yeap, we're all so tired lately.
But don't I look happier? :D (Haha.)

&tags:
Cara: Can't see your blog, and you can't see mine. I feel handicapped :(
Ruth: Me too! Hurray. A maths and HMT. Haha, it's not so bad. You only failed by like one mark.
Sophia: Haha! No please. I look like I'm in pain or something. Anyway, you'll be able to do the split soon. (:
Zek: No, he didn't I think. Haha, and i didn't too. Bet you did.
Hx: Okay! Mmhm. And the "body jam" on sunday wasn't good at all. Shona and I left half way. Haha, absolutely embarrassing okay.
Stan: Hah! I didd. That was sortof emo though :/ Anyway. Cheer up! (:
Andrea: I'm okay dear(: Really. I miss you too!
Ruth: I don't feel emotional when I'm around you, so no(: Be glad.
Maxy: Maxyy! (: Haha.
Qiulin: Do you want to be? Haha, no, I'm happy(:
Ash: Brilliantly written? Are you serious? Haha. I got like 26/40 for the script kay.
SaltedVeggie: I know who you are! :D You weirdo.
Rachel: Hello senior! Thanks for dropping by(: Yes, Add oil for SYF!
Erika: Oh man, tell me about it. Ah, and thank you so so much for listening me out love(:
David: 25 messages to 25 people? Haha. What's there to not get? (:
Yan: Hello! You're happy too, so no, you're not here(: I don't feel emotional when I'm around you. Haha.

Saturday, March 24, 2007

Yeah, I know. I hear you. Update! Haha(: Sorry, I haven't been in much of a blogging mood, so my tagboard has dieed. Yeah. Haha.

Today was the NE ambassador "camp" thing. Basically bonding la. People were cooler than expected. I mean, totally different worlds, but yeah. They're a bunch of nice sweet people. Erika was sympathising with me. Haha.

I have nothing to blog about, so I'm gonna do what cara did (though I can't see her blog). Haha. It's the 25 messages to 25 people thing. She did 20, but I'll see how. I'm not naming the people I'm writing to you. But yeah, I don't hate anyone k? (:

1. I miss you, I think I need you. Things started to fall apart without you. I'm sorry, so sorry. I don't know how to breathe, trying to escape the shaky ground. No, I shouldn't depend on you, I know I shouldn't. Why then do I not go to who you want me to? I'm sorry love.

2. You light up my life darling. Constant support from an everlasting beauty. You're strong, I know. I need you to keep telling me that I'm strong too. Thank you for your iridescent care. I just wish we could be closer, but I know. Time, time.

3. You're beautiful, and you've changed me. I don't know how to breathe the right way anymore, and I'm probably not doing the right thing, but perfection can never be achieved. You know alot about me, but I'm trying to understand you. What is love, anyway?

4. Believe me when I say that you're doing everything wrong. Care and advice is all I can give you, but you don't do the right thing. You claim to be in a relationship with Him, but I don't see it. He's not made up of comfort and fluff. Stop doing what you say you don't.

5. Things have been said about you and I. I have no idea if anything is true. It's torture, listening to your friends. People who adore you. You care about me, I care about you, but there are so many things you don't tell me. We are so common, it's amazing.

6. Your smile is like thin ice. Breakable, not to be trusted and extremely cold. I know we're only human, I now everyone's just trying their best to survive out here, but please. Hide your more hurtful feelings better. People always prefer a pretty glittery mask. I have no idea why people like you so much.

7. Your care has lasted the longest, best friend. Though we may fall apart sometimes, we both know we'll be there for each other any time. your comfort and care has caught me many times. I do wish you'd be able to tell me what to do. It seems as if you're the last contact with the light.

8. I know you respect me, I know you do. You've been a wonderful friend. People misunderstand you, I can't do much about that. I know you'll find love, I know you'll find the right one for you. Just wait darling, wait. He/She'll be so perfect he/she'll overcome you. Don't look for someone you know isn't the one for you. You know I love you.

9. I don't know why I fell for you at all. Thank you for all your comments about me. They've showed me the person you are. You know what you say isn't true, but okay. Please protect the rest of human population from me. I didn't do anything wrong.

10. I wanted us to be friends, but you didn't think so. People tore you away from me, you were deceived by them and torn away. Don't you see? The person infront of you now. Don't you think you should be wary of her instead of me? We are distanced, but I don't care. Not much.

11. You hurt so much. Everything is uneccesary. Believe in yourself and trust. Talks can only advise. Live it out. Take flight, stop living in your shades of grey. You can never completely trust people. You've learnt that from talking to me, haven't you? You probably won't read this, but yes. You told me not to be sorry.

12. I don't know why, but I have no idea how you can love someone you don't know. I don't understand you. You let people laugh at you, for what? You don't even want to get to know the person better. Get a grip on your life.

13. People laugh at you, and I pity you. It's not being disabled, you know. Stand tall, life isn't as bad as you think it is, people don't all hate you. People care, you know. Just don't cling on to this girl. I'm not meant for you. You caused people to hate you more by making me so public. Everyone knows, everyone knows.

14. You're first one who made me so shocked. I went numb, and you don't even deserve it. You probably don't even know who I am anymore. I see you, but you don't see me. Maybe I don't see you anymore.

15. You want to be someone else. I don't know how to help you. You count your flowers and each chocolate on valentines day. You are famous, but not in the right way. Don't you see? Maybe you don't know why your situation's like this. Stop doing what people see as wrong. You'll survive.

16. You've changed so much I don't recognise you anymore. You live for the day, you live for other people. You don't know how you feel. Why worry about perfection? It's important to you, and people see it in you. You're perfect in some people's eyes, but for many others, it's different. People misunderstand you, your needs. Don't they see that no one's perfect and we all have to grow? Your heart is broken up into so many pieces, you can't gather them up again. Everyone claims your heart to be theirs.

17. Your laughter lights up even the grey areas. Thank you. Don't give your life to all the things you know don't matter, love. Thank you for helping me out so many times, I know I can always count on you. Continue to be loved.

18. It's funny your grudge lasts so long. One thing shouldn't build up for so long. You don't show how you think of me, I find that disturbing. Please show your ture thoughts. Do it while you can. Also, I don't see why you get away with so many things I get caught for.

19. Your light is fake, but you don't know. I love you, please live. I don't know how to get through to you. Your care has helped me survive, thank you. Remember, passion is important though. Don't give up, never give up. And live, please live.

20. I don't know what you hide, but I know that nothing is as simple as it seems. You won't read this, I know. I don't understand why you're so different from us, you're so.. simple. It isn't possible. It's leaking out too, here, I see a trickle.

21. You're so fake, you live on anything that makes you happy. You live on some people and I know that you only care if it helps you. You don't understand so many things. We are so human aren't we? You, you need people around you to feel secure.

22. I don't know what you've heard. Maybe I don't want to. You show so much care to some, so why am I different then? You look at me as if I don't exist in your world. I know, I probably don't. Please continue being your wise self though. It works.

23. Fake. I know what's going through your mind has nothing to do with that grin on your face. That action of compassion. That display of greatness. I don't think you understand many things you think you do. I probably am in no position to judge though. Just live.

24. Your grace never fails, your faith is so strong. I respect you so much, you seem so perfect, as if you have everything under control. You're beautiful, not in the way other people judge you by. Everyone knows how beautiful you are. Almost perfect, you know. Sometimes I wonder why I can't be more like you.

25. I love you.

And I know everyone has mixed feelings, but please. These are things I've not been showing so claerly, so you know I love you anyway okay. I know I'm proabably not in any position to judge, but hey. maybe I'll delete this post soon.

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

"You just never knew.
Forever
was so many different things. It was always changing, it was what everything was really about. It was twenty minutes, or a hundred years, or just this instant, or any instant I wished would last and last. But there was only one truth about forever that mattered, and that was this:
It was happening. Right then, every moment afterwards. Now. Now. Now."
Just like happiness, you know? The only thing that matters when it comes to happiness is that it's happening now.


&tags:
[I know, I haven't replied in ages.]
Janice: Haha, yes hun. We will rock their socks! YOu and your wave and me with my pop! Haha.
Ruth: Yeah, hols were quite slack, thank goodness. And i know you lovee wuzun. Haha, earth to ruth darling, he's at the other end of the world? Ah, and i'm not emo(: And yarr, I'll definitely fail chinese, just watchout. Haha.
Leonard: I know, isn't that sad? And thank you, I'm not worried about what people who don't know me think about me. Hell yeah, whatever to what they say.
Jon: Thanks i guess. But coming from you? It's different.
David: Thanks for support(: I'm really not emo yeah. Haha. And no, I didn't cry? There was nothing to cry about, really.
Cara: Hey love, yeah! I missed you so so much during the hols! Plus, we're split up in class. I tell you, I'll die soon.
Wenjia: Sorry hun! You know I love you anyway. Haha, and the next time we're at estivo, you treat k? ((:
WL: Yupp. Hope you enjoyed the music. The movie was just the sweetest.
Erika: I didn't check your tag dear! I went all the waay to NJ. Oh gaw, absolutely loser. Haha. And no, your thighs look finee. It's my split everyone should be puking over.
Stan: I know, told you(: Haha.
Ash: Hey, it ain't mushy, it's sweet. And yeah, we love our music.
Hx: Should've asked me dear, I would've sent it to you!

Friday, March 16, 2007

GROUP 2, WINNERS, PURIFY<3>

Erika & I, same hoop earrings! Haha, I love you!

My darling seniors, guess who took this photograph? :D Thanks to avril's fantastic multiple-shots camera function. [left to right] liyana, amanda, chuyun, rachel, charlyn, avril

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

My tribute to emo-ness.
Yes. I can't let all this affect me anymore. I'm too tired. I'm very very emotionally tired. (Plus, emo-ness takes up too much time.) Yeah, and I give up. I give up. Please feel free to think anything you want of me. Really. I've submitted, thank you.

Monday, March 12, 2007

Seniors, you guys rock anyway! Plus, there's always next year(:

Danceworks was inspiriring, our j2 seniors and our grand seniors performed. There were alott of NJ people there(: Ofcourse, we won best supported group. Haha. Whoosh. Our grand seniors won! Ooh yeah. Mr Ho says he's gonna make us, the IP1s take part in it next year. Uhh, yay. Haha.

Then Manda, Shona, Hx, Edwin and I went for lunch. (I still remember Lido okay.) Haha, anndd we shopped, sortof. I didn't buy much(: Music and Lyrics started at 5.

Super sweet and quite funny(: I really want the soundtrack. Haha, POP! Goes my heart keeps replaying in my head. Extremely cute. :D

&tags:
Cara: I miss you already dear ):
Hx: Yes, I know. Haha, remind me to give you the money kay!
Wenjia: Hahaha, yeah(: And dang, it's so quiet with y'all in KL.
Ruth: Hey hun. Haha, be disillusioned. We do have homework! The dumb IS reflections and for 04, the super long winded chinese letter. Plus, for me? A self potrait and dance reflections. Haha, no, I think we do have homework. (:
Ash: Striking resemblance right! Haha. Shh :D
David: No waay. Haha, since when has thatt happened?
Maxy: Doesn't matter? Haha, yeah. I just need to prove myself to myself.
Sherryn: Uhh. You too, darling(: Thank you for offering to bring soap&shampoo!

Friday, March 09, 2007

Roadrun was wonderful!

3.6 never was easier than this. Haha, I really feel so accomplished. Imagine, I didn't walk/stop at all! Congrats to my dahhlings Cara, Qiulin and Yan(: 4th, 2nd and 3rd place respectively. You guys rockk. I got like, top 30. Don't laugh, I know. Hahaha. Oh well. My aim is to get top 20 next year. (For now) I'll be training(:


After roadrun, janice, shu, qiulin, tracy, serene, christel, barbie, gayle and I went out to celebrate Janice's birthday. Everyone ate at fish&co., but Shu, Qiulin and I ended up at Lido, eating something that didn't cost, like, more than $15. We're so sorry, Janice! Yup, and we bought a strawberry tart -cake replacement for janice. We know you love us.

Then we went shopping :D

Remember? Shu? Haha. Doesn't it look like someone we know? Shu was swinging it around when I notified everyone of the resemblance. Should've seen Shu jump. Haha! We love you shu.

Anddd..
Christel - lattice
Christel - growing
Christel - clear
Christel - ball
Christel - jade
Christel - Lee!

We know we rockk. :D

&tags:
Jon: Thanks, but ruth's right. Haha, but I guess we're quite different(:
David: Haha, some from you as well? Thanks. It can't be normal to fail! Really! I'l dieee. Oh and about the spamming? Wait til Sunday. Hah.
Ruth: Hahaha, yup. You're right. And umm.. If you get a blog, I promise promise to spam it. Haha(: Love you anyway.
Joshua: I figured. Haha, thank goodness.
Maxine: As unique as mine! Haha, evidently nicer though(:
Serene: Thanks, love(: You finally tagged! Haha.
Erika: Yeah! Gosh. Nvm(: Wenloong said it was a let down. We rockked the first one hard enough. Haha!
Cara: I'll miss you heaploads, darling. See you next week(:
Hx: Yes, hun. I know. Haha(: We'll see on Sunday.

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Exams are over(:
I guess that's good right? Haha, people, if I scared you in class just now, sorry. Thank you Cara, Qiulin, Yan for being there(: It was a natural reaction. (Expectation, disappointment, yeah.) Haha, I wonder if I'll pass anything this time round? Oh well, it's over, that's all that matters now right? Hmm. I'm not in a celebrating mood yet though.

Finally, sleep.

Oh! Cara! On the topic of my darling soyabeans, Plant oestrogens in soyabean strengthen the lumbar region of the spine and prevent oesteoporosis (Hey! oestrogen-oesteoporosis! similarity!). The good news is that while soyabean provides the oestrogen, soya isoflavones also block the ill-effects of oestrogen on *blah tissues. Soybean provides the most abundant source of isoflavones, which have been linked to the prevention of several diseases, including cancer, hypercholesterolemia, cardiovascular disease, atherosclerosis, osteoporosis, and relief of menopausal symptoms in certain women. Etc.
So yeah, I think it's safe to drink another cup of soyabean milk(: *Goes to get one.*
Omg, I love soyabean. [Hah! To Cara's canoeist source! ((:] It's still safe to eat tofu dear.

&tags:
Gahh. We all know that it's umm. Boring(: Haha. Anyway, alot of tags to reply.
Ruth: I love you dear, but yeah. I really don't like them and i doubt they like me. Haha, no vice versa etc. And yeah, I LOVE QUAN! (But I love Edward more, hah.)
Cara: Booyeahh. Exams are over! Thank you so much hun, you helped see me through(:
Ash: Relax(: It's okay. It's umm. Normal?
Leonard: Haha. Show ruth your new girlfriend(s) when you get them k!
Maxy: YES OMG YES YES. I'M UNAVAILABLE FOR NOW. Thank you maxy! <3!
David: Blah you. Yes, I'm kat. Haha, no one likes me k? Yeah, and maxy's name's nice. Like mine.
Joshua: (When I saw your post, I thought you were referring to me? Haha, I couldn't help thinking about how weird it would be. Big, Small. Okay.) Anyway, I love ruth! Haha, I'm not bullying her!
Erika: Thank you, love. Yeah, I'm learning to cope(:
Angel: Sure(: I'll be expecting one from you anytime soon.
WL: Haha, yeah. Thank you(: That's totally comforting. I was thinking more like, slack after ass week? Nvm. I was sniggering when I saw you sing the school song.
Hx: No dear, I didn't. It's still kayeta. Can't wait for Sunday and your him!
Qiulin: Haha, thanks anyway(: Love!
Jon Q.: I know. Haha. You better not believe any of it. Yeah, thanks for lending it to me. I stole your baby for far too long! Sorry :/
Shona: Yup, thanks hun. See you on Sunday!
(Muscle)Jon: Haha. Don't ask. Anyway, don's give me that spasicated look, I'm unavailable(:
Shengrui: What do you mean? :/ Haha, anyway. Hello! I didn't know that you read my blog!

Thursday, March 01, 2007

Disheartening tagboard. *Glares at it*
Haha, people, no one likes me k? Haha, and I don't like Ash or Leonard or Stan or randomguywewalkpast etc. Yeah? On the topic, I don't sit on guys, hug guys or sleep with anyone. It's frustrating, all this dumbtalk.
Right now, I'm telling myself that IT DOESN'T MATTER and that so long as people who know me don't think I'm like that, I'm okay. I can't afford another emo episode until after assessment week. Haha.
*Flings head around* Frustrating.
I'M NOT PLANNING ON GETTING WITH ANYONE, PEOPLE. THERE'S NO GOSSIP.
People are telling me that "If what they say isn't true, then you have nothing to hide or worry about." I get that, so kara:
Breathe.

And no, david, ben, don't add to this.
Ruth, Ash, Leonard, please don't swear? :/

/edit
[Ash says I should talk about something else. Yeah, I'm tired of all that crap.]

Ash says:
It's such a nice day. How bout mentioning the new guy and how nice he was compared to kaushik and erm ren jean talking to herself on the way to the bus stop (to which i say: 'ill cut my wrist in front of your face') bloody hell, i would have. Why always so sad posts? cheer up! before i come over there and slap you till you're happy!

Haha, okay so yes. Let's restart this post.
Welcome, Pravin, to our whacky coolio 04 class.
He's new, transferred from the ever-scandalous ACSI which my brother's studying at now. Obviously terribly smart. He's gonna be taking ass week with us next week. Dangg, all the best, person.

Oh yes! On the topic of studying for science and erm. Qiulin's rambles,
Cara: "In relationships, it starts with chemistry, then it get physical, then we have biology." *Laughs maniacally*

*Cough*
The whole damn world is just as obsessed
With who's the best dressed and who's having sex
Who's got the money, who gets the honeys
Who's kinda cute and who's just a mess
And you still don't have the right look
And you don't have the right friends
Nothing changes but the faces, the names, and the trends.

Hurrah, I love my world.