Saturday, March 24, 2007
Yeah, I know. I hear you. Update! Haha(: Sorry, I haven't been in much of a blogging mood, so my tagboard has dieed. Yeah. Haha.Today was the NE ambassador "camp" thing. Basically bonding la. People were cooler than expected. I mean, totally different worlds, but yeah. They're a bunch of nice sweet people. Erika was sympathising with me. Haha.I have nothing to blog about, so I'm gonna do what cara did (though I can't see her blog). Haha. It's the 25 messages to 25 people thing. She did 20, but I'll see how. I'm not naming the people I'm writing to you. But yeah, I don't hate anyone k? (:1. I miss you, I think I need you. Things started to fall apart without you. I'm sorry, so sorry. I don't know how to breathe, trying to escape the shaky ground. No, I shouldn't depend on you, I know I shouldn't. Why then do I not go to who you want me to? I'm sorry love.2. You light up my life darling. Constant support from an everlasting beauty. You're strong, I know. I need you to keep telling me that I'm strong too. Thank you for your iridescent care. I just wish we could be closer, but I know. Time, time. 3. You're beautiful, and you've changed me. I don't know how to breathe the right way anymore, and I'm probably not doing the right thing, but perfection can never be achieved. You know alot about me, but I'm trying to understand you. What is love, anyway?4. Believe me when I say that you're doing everything wrong. Care and advice is all I can give you, but you don't do the right thing. You claim to be in a relationship with Him, but I don't see it. He's not made up of comfort and fluff. Stop doing what you say you don't.5. Things have been said about you and I. I have no idea if anything is true. It's torture, listening to your friends. People who adore you. You care about me, I care about you, but there are so many things you don't tell me. We are so common, it's amazing. 6. Your smile is like thin ice. Breakable, not to be trusted and extremely cold. I know we're only human, I now everyone's just trying their best to survive out here, but please. Hide your more hurtful feelings better. People always prefer a pretty glittery mask. I have no idea why people like you so much. 7. Your care has lasted the longest, best friend. Though we may fall apart sometimes, we both know we'll be there for each other any time. your comfort and care has caught me many times. I do wish you'd be able to tell me what to do. It seems as if you're the last contact with the light.8. I know you respect me, I know you do. You've been a wonderful friend. People misunderstand you, I can't do much about that. I know you'll find love, I know you'll find the right one for you. Just wait darling, wait. He/She'll be so perfect he/she'll overcome you. Don't look for someone you know isn't the one for you. You know I love you.9. I don't know why I fell for you at all. Thank you for all your comments about me. They've showed me the person you are. You know what you say isn't true, but okay. Please protect the rest of human population from me. I didn't do anything wrong.10. I wanted us to be friends, but you didn't think so. People tore you away from me, you were deceived by them and torn away. Don't you see? The person infront of you now. Don't you think you should be wary of her instead of me? We are distanced, but I don't care. Not much.11. You hurt so much. Everything is uneccesary. Believe in yourself and trust. Talks can only advise. Live it out. Take flight, stop living in your shades of grey. You can never completely trust people. You've learnt that from talking to me, haven't you? You probably won't read this, but yes. You told me not to be sorry.12. I don't know why, but I have no idea how you can love someone you don't know. I don't understand you. You let people laugh at you, for what? You don't even want to get to know the person better. Get a grip on your life.13. People laugh at you, and I pity you. It's not being disabled, you know. Stand tall, life isn't as bad as you think it is, people don't all hate you. People care, you know. Just don't cling on to this girl. I'm not meant for you. You caused people to hate you more by making me so public. Everyone knows, everyone knows.14. You're first one who made me so shocked. I went numb, and you don't even deserve it. You probably don't even know who I am anymore. I see you, but you don't see me. Maybe I don't see you anymore.15. You want to be someone else. I don't know how to help you. You count your flowers and each chocolate on valentines day. You are famous, but not in the right way. Don't you see? Maybe you don't know why your situation's like this. Stop doing what people see as wrong. You'll survive. 16. You've changed so much I don't recognise you anymore. You live for the day, you live for other people. You don't know how you feel. Why worry about perfection? It's important to you, and people see it in you. You're perfect in some people's eyes, but for many others, it's different. People misunderstand you, your needs. Don't they see that no one's perfect and we all have to grow? Your heart is broken up into so many pieces, you can't gather them up again. Everyone claims your heart to be theirs.17. Your laughter lights up even the grey areas. Thank you. Don't give your life to all the things you know don't matter, love. Thank you for helping me out so many times, I know I can always count on you. Continue to be loved.18. It's funny your grudge lasts so long. One thing shouldn't build up for so long. You don't show how you think of me, I find that disturbing. Please show your ture thoughts. Do it while you can. Also, I don't see why you get away with so many things I get caught for.19. Your light is fake, but you don't know. I love you, please live. I don't know how to get through to you. Your care has helped me survive, thank you. Remember, passion is important though. Don't give up, never give up. And live, please live.20. I don't know what you hide, but I know that nothing is as simple as it seems. You won't read this, I know. I don't understand why you're so different from us, you're so.. simple. It isn't possible. It's leaking out too, here, I see a trickle.21. You're so fake, you live on anything that makes you happy. You live on some people and I know that you only care if it helps you. You don't understand so many things. We are so human aren't we? You, you need people around you to feel secure. 22. I don't know what you've heard. Maybe I don't want to. You show so much care to some, so why am I different then? You look at me as if I don't exist in your world. I know, I probably don't. Please continue being your wise self though. It works.23. Fake. I know what's going through your mind has nothing to do with that grin on your face. That action of compassion. That display of greatness. I don't think you understand many things you think you do. I probably am in no position to judge though. Just live.24. Your grace never fails, your faith is so strong. I respect you so much, you seem so perfect, as if you have everything under control. You're beautiful, not in the way other people judge you by. Everyone knows how beautiful you are. Almost perfect, you know. Sometimes I wonder why I can't be more like you.25. I love you.And I know everyone has mixed feelings, but please. These are things I've not been showing so claerly, so you know I love you anyway okay. I know I'm proabably not in any position to judge, but hey. maybe I'll delete this post soon.
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