Saturday, April 28, 2007
Ruth: Yes dear, I'm not depressed, thank you((: Thank you for your support! Muah.
Erika: Yup, SYF is suddenly over. ): Don't worry about what others think of us okay? It's up to them to think what they want to, but so long as we know what we are and what we are capable of, it's enough. What are they to us anyway, right? We can prove it to them during Aristal(:
Hx: Thank you for your support darling, and no, nothing about weird discs. Haha, something about a blood red sun though. :/
Tricia: Haha, I was cryingg. But yes, I love everyone so much too(: *Hugs*
Cara: Thank you for your support(: And thank you for believeing in us even after the results are out. Thank you! Andd. Yes, totally. I really thought the world was gonna end when I saw it. My mum even wanted to call my grandma to see if she was raptured.
Zek: Eh, don't swear on my tagboard can? And yeah. Up to you. Unlike some people, *stares at you* we don't look like pontiacs. Whateverwayyouwannaspellit.
David: Yeah, we'll recover(: And we know we did our best together, so no one's to blame.
Jieyi: Hello! Yeah, long time no see(: I miss y'all! Haha, but I'm sortof happy I'm out of GB :/
QiuLin: No problem(:
Avril: Yeah, & now that it's over, I feel so strangee. Oh well. ARISTAL AND STREETFEST!
Mama: Thank you! (: AND ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR SYF TOOO!
Maxy: Haha, maxy darling, of course I won't. You're much too popular. Haha, I don't think I want so many hits either. Quite scaryyy. And yeah, I think I have to redo it. Too upsetting. But it's okay! (: And yes, relinkk. & We know we'll improve over the time we spend in dance! Yeah! We will use this as a stepping stone to success. Haha.
Stan: Was the "We're all gonna die" directed to dance or the world? Haha. When I first saw it, I was like, "stan thinks we're gonna die for syf. oh dear." & yarr. What gracious? Haha!
Anon: Um. Thank you. I'm sure your blog's nice too. No wait! Hello, Thaddaeus Aaron Tan Yong Zhong!
Eugene: Whoaa. You know the url of my blog? Haha, nah, it's okay(: I felt quite silly though.
Ash: Funny. Haha, we did okay. For, like, 6 minutes, that stage was ours. Oh! And we rented it once before too.
Cherie: Dangg. I spelt your name wrong, sorry! Ah. And yes, we've come so far, and we know we've done our best(:
Sherryn: Haha! What are the **** infront of your tag? tsk tsk. And yes, I love you too dear. (:
Serene: (oops, which serene are you?) And yeah, okay(: We're proud of ourselves, yes, we are.
Ale: Thank you(: Yeah! We will we will rock you. Esp during streetfest & aristal!

Thursday, April 26, 2007

Thank you, I really love all of you.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Dance! It's so beautiful- so full of passion. I don't really know how to start writing about the whole dance, the whole SYF, the whole beautiful journey. How can I describe it? This journey, these 6 months have been so wonderful. It opened my eyes to dance, really. I was never really in dance before this. I didn't know what to expect, but it has carried me. It has been a constant goal, a constant commitment, constant passion. Before I joined IP SYF, dance seemed like a distant dream. I still remember the day Mr. Dan called us up. I couldn't imagine being chosen. I had so many doubts- but I was sure of one thing. That I just had to dance! I remember Mr. Ho telling us in the gym that we could join the IP team if we wanted. I was exhilerated, really. I didn't expect it at all. And that- that was a turning point. I knew, I just knew I made the rgiht choice.

The first practice. The first practice was just so inspiring. Haha, it showed me what I couldn't do then, but at the same time, it showed me what I could achieve later. Like splits and weird jumps. And yes, our mountains were so high up there, it seemed barely possible that we would actually be able to do splits, at all. But we can now, for some of us(:

I can't help but remember all the senior's "WE CAN DO IT!"s. She must have said it a thousand times over the past 6 months, thank you, seniors, really. We did do it. We did.

The process was so- so long, yet now when I look back at it, I feel that it's just too short. And before we performed, the tears we cried and the blood we shed and all the pain seemed too much, but now, they just seem so distant, and so few. Tell me, can anyone describe it?

We've all been so tired, so stressed, so pressured; we've gone through so much, we've learnt so much. Perseverance, determination, strength, discipline, the importance of believeing in ourselves and having hope. Our practices were bittersweet, grueling at times, and more often than not: tough and tiring, inspiring, beautiful, encouraging, and topped with a hello-panda-in-milo drink or pearl tiea. It was fun, and I can't remember not looking forward to a dance practice.

So we were discouraged by other people, we were seen to be inferior. You know, it doesn't matter at all because we know what we're worth. We're worth more than diamonds. Listening to dumb people laugh at us wasn't nice, but it made me wantto prove myself more. So what? Scorners? So what. We owned the stage.

Thank you JC seniors; Tasya, Coco, everyone. You were there to support us, thank you. We know that we couldn't have done it without all of you. Thank you for pointing out our mistakes and showing us that you cared about how we did. Your encouragement, your notes and gifts touched our hearts and made us who we are today.

Teachers, you played a huge part in our dance too. You were the ones that made everything possible. Thank you Mr. Ho, Ms Woon, everyone. You told us we were beautiful, wonderful, you helped us believe in ourselves. Thank you.

I hope we did Mr Dan proud. I hope we did. He put in so much effort into our dance too. He helped us to be the best we could be. Thank you for believeing in us, and teaching us the importance of teamwork.

AH! We overcame it all together, we did it. When we thought we were weak, we were strong. I've learnt so much, I've experienced something beyond words. Never have I put in so much into something before. I think we were brave and strong to overcome all the problems we faced; all our anxiety.

Backstage, in UCC. We were huddled up together, praying, whispering, encouraging, keeping each other warm in the dark. I could never forget the feelings I had backstage. For that moment, all our differences didn't matter, we all had one goal and one passion. Dance, Gold with honours.

So the lights came on, and we danced. I danced like there was no tomorrow, I didn't care if my heart would stop. I danced for God, for NJ, for us, for me, for them. It was beautiful. No matter what others say, no matter the result. I know we did our best. Our best, our precious dance that we worked on together for 6 months. Our brethren, our pride. We did it. We did it.

Then the last clas sounded, I lay there, blanked out. No, how could it be? The dance was so short. Too fast. I wish that our dance could last forever. After we had come out, after awhile, I felt this big hollowness creep up on me, like something was stolen from my heart. SYF was over; our journey was over. It felt so different. I was probably in shock, and I know how to describe it. It's like this whole journey was a roller coaster ride, but when it ends, you don't react for awhile, to soak in everything. Then you cheer, and feel like waiting another 2 hours to ride it again.

Yes, I want to do our SYF again.

I love our dance group, Janice, Sohpia, Erika, Ilyna, Yiting, Emily, Tricia, Vera, Serene, Gabby, Avril, Chuyun, Amanda, Liyanna, Hang, Sherryn, Sherry, Jade, Germaine, Huiting, Rachel, Davina, Charlyn, YenMing. I would never be able to do all this without all of you. You have been so wonderful, thank you for everything. I cannot imagine not practicing with all of you for SYF, I can't. I can only tell myself that we will still be one western dance. We will still be dancing together, this piece, for Aristal. I look forward to that, as well as streetfest.

I love you, IP SYF '07, I love this journey we've been through together,. Thank you, thank you for everything. I couldn't exchange anything for this chance to dance wuth all of you, so thank you.

We dance, we dance.

I can't imagine life going on after this- I just can't.

Dance SYF
NJC IP
Eclipse De La Son
Serial number 38.

23/4- 4:15pm.

Sunday, April 22, 2007

Friday, April 20, 2007

We're proud of you, darlings. Cara, QiuLin, Yiyan. Loveee you all(:
Haha, dear Janice. Ahma looks cute in the cowboy hat((:

Thursday, April 19, 2007

&i'm failing and failing,
but I keep holding on.
I have to,
But there's only so much a heart can take.

Maybe;
Do you fear
the expressions on the faces we don't know
It's a cold hard road when you wake up
and I don't think that I
Have the strength to let you go
Maybe it's just me,
Couldn't you believe that everything I said and did,
wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm hard face
makes me wish that I was never brought into this place
There goes my ring
It might as well have been shattered
and I'm here to sing about the things that mattered
And someday,
I promise I'll be gone
And someday,
I might even sing this song
To you,
I might even sing this song, to you
and I was crying alone tonight
and I was wasting all of my life just thinking of you
Maybe it's just me,
Couldn't you believe that everything I said and did,
wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm hard face
makes me wish that I was never brought into this place.

&tags:
Janice: Haha, yes. Aren't we strong! (I know you are!) Dance was super tiring for me today. Can't imagine what it was like for all of you. JiaYou! And I still think you're abit too stone. You were there for me, I'll be here for you if anything happens yeah? Stay strong darling(: SYF is coming, coming, gone.
David: I don't wanna kill anyone. Really(: Haha. Just a self-reminder. Ah, and it's okay. My cousin's joking. ( I hope) And thank you! Haha. Same to you. Um, this one's modern dance. Awesome huh. I'm doing HipHop for streetfest in June I think.
Josh: I don't know how, but I'm trying(: Thank you. Take care too! I'm here for you, as always.
Ruth: Haha, samesame. All the best hun. You know you'll do the school proud(: I'll cheer you on! Yay! Haha.
Amanda: Yup. & thanks for putting up with all the crap. Haha, and thank you for your concern(: Love you darhhling. And tell me your results when you get them! Remember! Ah, I love you to pieces. *Hugs you and refuses to let go*.
Zek:
Hx: Haha, thank you darling overprotective bestie. Take care, yo. And no problem. You know I'm always here for you. I'm glad you got over your problem(: *Hits problem promptly*. Life is beautiful.
Erikaa: Haha, no, so not. (I saw, I know.) Love you too dear(: Thanks for your concern! I'll be back up on my feet before you know it. (Ah.) And send me White Houses! Haha. Rest well okay? Stay strong. Don't get sick like me!
Alethea: Hello! You found my blog! Haha, yep. We'll all dance our best! Thank you for the support(:


& No, I am NOT emo. ((:

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Strength;
Dancers, I'm sorry if I got you all worried just now ): Yes, I was worked up, and shocked. But most of all, I was just so darn disappointed with myself. I could see everyone being so tired, yet able to give their 100%, I stuck out like a sore thumb. I kept telling myself I'd be pulling y'all down. Wht did I get sick in the first place? Ah.

But I know. I'll just have to take care and recover soon. Yes, I will. Meanwhile, I can see the whole group coming together, and it's beautiful. Everyone's beautiful. Thank you for the support(: Janice, Erika, Sophia, Ily. You guys rock. & I'll get better soon. Real soon. Before I miss everything. Haha, yes.



Together, we'll achieve.
Gold with honours!

Sunday, April 15, 2007

I'm sickkk.

Anyway, this is to tell myself that I don't give a damn about stupid comments people who don't know me make about me. Really. Go stick your head into a toilet bowl or something. I will ignore the dumb looks you give me. Bimbo or not, flirt or not, whatever. You decide.

So long as the people closest to me know who I am.

On a lighter note:
I added a counter because I suspect people are watching my blog :/ It's funny, but quite freaky. Haha. Hello(:

Saturday, April 14, 2007

DanceDance.

Dancers! Even if we feel like we're falling apart now, just remember that it'll be over soon(: Dumb people who think we can't dance don't know what they're talking about. Really. Since November, we've been working so hard. All the way for the last stretch! Stretch! :D We will be ownage on (Ashwyn doesn't like this word :/ ) RULE the stage. When the lights come on on the UCC stage, we'll all know why we even joined dance in the first place. Our passion, everything. Gold! Gold with honours! (And I can't hear you laughing, track people etc.! We will so prove all of you wrong.)
J'adore dance!


&tags:
Vera: Hey vera, my not-shortest jiejie((: I don't really know who's in the family know. Haha.
Ruth: Mmph, yeah, why didn't I? ): Anyway, you're so not fat, so it wouldn't matter(: Juts run more dear, love you!
Maxyy: Haha, not yet. All the running's gotten my muscles stiff. Hurts like crap now, but nvm(:
David: Mmm, abit blur, but you don't even know who he is, so it's excusable. Yeah, he's in my DG. Will point him out next time. Haha(:
Zek: Don't be mean. I bet you can't name everyone in PLH. Hah.
Ash: Ah, shadddupp. EDWARD CULLEN IS NOT SATANIC, and he doesn't drink human's blood, and OH GAW. He doesn't turn into a bat, dummy. And he doesn't die in the sun either, in case you wanted to know. Haha. & Cara doesn't wear eyeliner and I'm not emo. So there.
Cara: I feel like wanting to be a vampire ): Maybe then we'll be able to see him. Haha! Oh well. We shall work hand-inhand to dispell weird misconceptions of vampires. (Glares at ashwyn.)
Cassie: Hello! Of course I remember you! Haha, how's GB anyway? Hmm, and yes, NJ's super different from MG, but it rocks anyway. Miss you guys lots.
Cheese: Oh man. Thank you for your concern? Haha. I'm not a kitten, shuush. And I'm done with the biography of Edgar Degas, but I'm not done with the rest. I hope Pris does her work, sigh.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Like, I haven't replied tags since march 27 :/ haha.

Cara: Hello love. I'm un-emo now! Ash can't call me emo anymore(: Haha, mah darling's so purtyy.
Ash: Haha, maybe you should try someday(: Proven results.
Maxy: Heyy, haha. Nope, ignore the silly anons(: And ah! I feel like deleting that act-cute picture! Embarrassing like crazyy.
David: Haha, you don't have to know who kee is(: Really. And yes, it's my prayer.
Cherze: Ah! I'm sorry, I'm adding you right after I do this post k! Sorry!
Ting: Hey dear(: haha, please. That isn't even considered pigging out. (And did I eat? I forgot :/)
Saltedveggie: Uhhuh. Blur person. Haha
Divij: Hello! I bet you don't read my blog now(: Haha.
Erika: Ah mah darlingg! You know I love you(: Thanks for putting up with all my crap. And we'll all work hard for GOLDD for our SYF! We will do it, yes we will! Then we'll rock the whole street with our fabby dances during street fest. (:
Zek: Ah, don't be stupid. I don't think it's kee. And I had to delete the tag, so I don't know the IP(:
UrLoved: I'm sorry, I may not be able to give you what you want. And I'm sorry I had to delete your tag, it's not me, you now, accepting things from strangers. Not a personal attack, really.
Janice: Hello! Thanks for seeing me "through" ((: You rock so much, dancer! And who cares about what other people think about our dance now! We will be beautiful on stage(:
Pravin: Wheeee! I was super surprised to see your name on my tagboard(: Heck the rest and their accusations of you being random. Haha! We all are anyway.
Hx: Hey hun. Haha, Easter retreat was super super good(: I hope you did alot of good thinking! And thank you for making me feel loved, I know I'm never alone. And that doesn't even matter because I have my God! Thank you so much dear(:
Amanda: I'm emo no longer! Haha, and please don't forget your keys again! You know I'll always be here for you kay? Don't get chased away by my apparent affection to emo-ness. Haha, really. I want to help you dear.
QiuLin: Hello! Mm, yor hair's really okay. Really. Don't worry about what others say k! Be who you want to be. I accept you for who you are(: I don't think the hair matters so much. (But thanks for saying my hair's nice anyway. Haha.)
Shona!: I forgot to put your picture on my blog! Ah! I'm so so sorry! Thanks for splitting with me darling(: And thank you for helping me feel better. It's really too bad you missed the first part though. It was good, but don't worry(: My mum has extra mugs! Ask me for one k!

Monday, April 09, 2007

Dear God,

Thank you for bringing me back to You. When I was weak and lost, You found me, taught me to breathe and gave me strength. You told me that You are Mighty to save, Beautiful. You reminded me of your everlasting all-encompassing love. I know that nothing I've done or will ever do could possibly tear me away from you. Nothing can pluck me away from your hand. What can seperate me now?

Lord, You take me as I am. All my fears and failures. I know that Your strength is made perfect in my weakness. You rose and conquered the grave, told me that You loved me. I believe that You'll take me for everything I am. And i know I don't have to be perfect for You, Lord. I know You are the only perfect one. The only perfect Savior, Father and Friend.

Savior, He can move the mountains. My God is mighty to save. Forever, author of salvation, He rose and conquered the grave, Jesus conquered the grave!

I know I don't need the world to love me. I know that I can never please everyone. He's the only one that will matter at the end of time anyway; For He is everlasting. Ah, Father, You know that I falter so easily. Right now, water is running from beneath my feet. Threatening to make me fall. Everyday, I slip. Open my eyes to the work of Your hand, Lord. Teach me to trust in You for everything. I've commited all my pain, all my sin, all my failure to You to control.

I say "Yet not my will, but Yours." In my life, Your will be done. I know You'll be my consistent help, always with Your hand outstretched, to cover up my weakness, to make me whole, to catch me when I fall.

Father, I know You hear me. You know I've fallen from you for so long. So long. Thank You for showing me the Light again, for touching my heart, for reviving me. Opening my eyes. When I kept clinging on to the wrong hopes, the wrong pillars that kept falling, I know You've been calling out ot me. Lord, thank You for lifting me up again.

Help me, help me. I know I'm not strong. I know I'm so dependant on you. When the world engulfs me again, in the quiet of the morning, let me remember You, and Your everlasting love. I know You love me. You go before me, You know my way. Your hand it shields me. There's no greater love than this.

Sunday, April 08, 2007

Ah! Shona, I didn't get to take many pics with you at all )): Thank you for coming though, I love you!

happy; hyterical.
Maybe it's just me,
Couldn't you believe
that everything I said and did,
wasn't just deceiving.
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm hard face
makes me wish that I was never brought into this place.


I just realised how much i shut myself out :/ haha, must've been horror looking at me being moody the whole day. No, i promise you, I'm not emo anymore. Good Friday & Easter has really changed me.


If my heart has grown cold,
There Your love will unfold;
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

When I'm blind to my way,
There Your Spirit will pray;
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand,
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

Oceans will part; nations come
At the whisper of Your call.
Hope will rise;
glory shown.
In my life, Your will be done.

Present suffering may pass,
Lord, Your mercy will last;
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.
And my heart will find praise,
I'll delight in Your way,
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand,
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

I've got trials and tribulations,
Troubles all around;
My desires and expectations have me lost more than I'm found.
The Lord knows I often falter
In the smallness of my pride,
But when i kneel down at His altar, I am lifted up inside.

'Til I stand upon that mountain
'til I sit beside the throne,
'til the waters of love's fountain
'til they carry me home.
'til I rise up from this mortal clay of blood and bone,
Let the rick that was rolled away be my cornerstone.

Help me face every tomorrow,
Give me strength to bear the load;
Give me signs that I can follow,
Set my feet up on the road.
And may He who walked on water
Give me courage where I tread,
And when I kneel down at His altar, let my hungry soul be fed.

Let this faith be my foundation,
This hope my liberation
'til I fly away on that glorious, glorious day!

Let the rock that was rolled away,
Let the rock that was rolled away be my cornerstone.


Oh Lord, You've searched me.
You know my way;
Even when I fail You,
I know You love me.
Your holy presence
Surrounding me
In every season,
know You love me;
I know You love me.

At the cross I bow my knee,
Where Your blood was shed for me,
There's no greater love than this.
You have overcome the grave,
Your glory fills the highest place,
What can separate me now?

You go before me,
You shield my way,
Your hand upholds me;
I know You love me.

You tore the veil,
You made a way
When You said that it is done.



Everyone needs compassion
A love that's never failing
Let mercy fall on me
Everyone needs forgiveness
A kindness of a Savior
The hope of nations

Savior
He can move the mountains
My God is Mighty to save
He is Mighty to save
Forever
Author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

So take me as You find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything i believe in
Now i surrender

Shine your light and let the whole world see
We're singing for the glory of the risen King...Jesus

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

Sherryn's birthday(: Happy birthday dear.
Serene, with her spasicated laughter(: We love you! Happy birthdayy.
WenJia les-ing with Qiulin! Oh gaww.
WenJia being normal. Yes, normal.

I was gonna post something, but no. Hah, I won't. (: Maybe next time.

Monday, April 02, 2007

Ah, it's been crazy crazy busy lately. Goodness, I wish time would stop for awhile. I have no idea how to manage my time. You can tell. Haha, dance, LA, MI, SPIRE, Chinese, AEP. You know, everythingg.

Anyway, this is to the darlings that aren't so happy about their GPAs.
It doesn't matter that much, and you know it. Your worth isn't counted in how many As you have. This is a one shot thing, you know you'll work harder this term(: Don't listen to people who tell you that you're dumb and stupid because you can't do this well. You're worth more than diamonds.

& I'm to announce that I'm attached. People are worried I have guys after me. (HAHA.)

Yes, hang in there, people. We realised that the June hols are like, 7 weeks away. You can count down now(: Haha, I feel so random. Really don't have much to blog about :/
AH! ASHWYN, DANCERS AREN'T STUPID. You can't convince me(: We know deep in our hearts that we rockk. Yes, we do. And you know too. Trackist. Janice, we attack.

---
& this is to the people to whom it applies.

Sorrow drips into your heart,
Through a pin-hole.
Just like a faucet that leaks,
And there is comfort in the sound.

But while you debate,
Half empty or half full,
It slowly rises,
Your love is gonna drown.

You'll live(: