Tuesday, July 31, 2007
/EDIT;
GRAH. I WROTE IT WRONGLY.

Burn, darling, burn.
No one's home,
Your stomach churns,
We are alone.

Child, fly.
(Red passion)
This night, we get high,
No intercession.

Girl, slow down,
Lest you lose your crown.
Shame beneath
Gritted teeth.

Love, create.
And pain.
See, no more hate;
No chains.

Gone!
Bleeding.
And torn,
Fleeing.

Betrayal,
A sharp inhale.
Dreams now broken,
Sweetness forgotten.

Heart you must mend,
Do try to be strong,
(Or at least pretend);
For we won't stay long.

Monday, July 30, 2007

CLICK TO ENLARGE.
OPERATION: DIE ACS(I)!


<3 Cara, RJ, Shuyi & me.

Saturday, July 28, 2007

JANICE HAN.
CHEERRUP K? We'll be here for you<3 I don't exactly know what's happening, but I'm sure it's gotta be serious because you're not usually emo. (Unlike me) Well. I'll be praying, and well, you know that GOD'S PLAN IS PERFECT.
Lots of love. Come to my church soon k?

//
Life is a race
With generations of cheer.
A baton passed down to children,
An overcome fear.
So great the cloud of witnesses,
All who have run have lived.
Lay aside
Every encumberence,
Sin that easily entagles.
Run
With endurance,
The race marked out for us.
Fix your eyes
on the Author, 
Perfector of our faith.
Uphill and downhill,
We are always saved.
Two destinations,
One prize,
One crown,
An offering.
Life is a race.
Life
Is given by grace.
//

Friday, July 27, 2007

Morning of OBS. Start of something new.


IH, war(:


RJ & Yan. Sharing the HP book. Haha, HP


Crystal growing.

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Alright.
Sigh, dancers, I'm sorry we made you run 2.4km today ): It won't happen again. Commitment, right.
Okay now I'm really glazed over.
I'm an unthinking being now, believe me. I have reason to believe that this post will be utterly incoherent. Just like my life has been for the past few days. I ain't gonna try to make this post any easier for you to understand. Haha. It's a miracle I'm still walking now.
My maid scolded me just now. She says I look like I haven't slept for days and days.
Yeah, whatever.
You don't even need to stare at my eyebags to realise I need rest. Just look at my outbreak.
Grah.
So on Monday, I reached home at uh, hmm. I can't remember. Probably 8. Tuesday? 6.30. Wednesday, 8.30pm, Thursday, 8.30pm. My life is: Incoherent.
(Lemme check the meaning of that nice long word.)

in·co·her·ent (ĭn'kō-hîr'ənt)
adj.
1. Lacking cohesion, connection, or harmony; not coherent: incoherent fragments of a story.
2. Unable to think or express one's thoughts in a clear or orderly manner: incoherent with grief.

Anyway, besides being absolutely shagged these past few days, I've been inexplicably happier. Or maybe there's a reason. Ooh. Haha, many many 
thankyous to beautiful friends and family<3

I'm getting more and more random nowadays, really. Thinking of tea leaves on the phone. Blah. Bad sign, I think.
Okay. Maybe I'll edit this post when I'm more than 1/4 alive.

Saturday, July 21, 2007

Did you know that yesterday was 20/07/2007? I didn't. Haha, until I watched the news and found out that there were more induced births than usual.

Well anyway. We had our first swimming lesson yesterday. It left me quite wasted after. But then again, I've been so tired this whole week because I've been sleeping so late. Later than 1 everyday. Oh well. I don't know. Maybe the reason why this week has been so long is because it's, well, the first week of the semester. It was really long. Long.

So, back to swimming, RenJean, Yan and I were in the erm, advanced group, naturally. I was the slowest slug of the three girls from 04. I've really slackened. Man. I haven't swum in such a long long time! So anyway. The three of us together with KaiYuan and WeiQuan (I think) are gonna work toward the gold star swimming cert thing. Not cos we're swimming freaks but because we really don't have anything else to do. To be honest, I can't really be bothered. I feel like just sitting beside the pool and laughing at people in swimming costumes. Haha. Lazy me.

It's really quite strange to see people in their tight swimming costumes. Serene, I might add, has a really sexayye swimming costume. Haha, so does ZhuoYun. I wish the guys would wear more though. You know, not wear those tiny swimming trunks from yesteryear. I did not enjoy looking at erm. Flab. Cara didn't swim though. Neither did Janice. Boo. 

So yeah.

Janice lent me "The Notebook" and "The Wedding". I've read The Notebook, but I'm not done with The Wedding. Here's an excerpt from The Notebook.

"In times of grief and sorrow I will hold you and rock you, and take your grief and make it my own. When you cry, I cry and when you hurt, I hurt. And together we will try to hold back floods of tears and despair and make it through the potholed streets of life."

It's really the sweetest love story novel I've read. THANK YOU JANICE! I can just imagine highly animated over-emotional women flooding their rooms with tears. I, on the other hand, can safely declare that I didn't cry (much). You know, just a little. Haha.

Oh well. I'm glad this working week has come to a close. Maybe next week will be less tiring.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

WTH, COUSIN. Thanks alot.
"The view expressed by writers do not necessarily reflect the official stand of the owner of this blog."
-Apologies.

*Breathes*
Anyway, this comes a few months late.

Follow Through
Gavin DeGraw

So, since you wanna be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
you to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you have to follow through
You have to follow through

These reeling emotions they just keep me alive
They keep me in tune
Oh, look what I'm holding here in my fire
This is for you
Am I too obvious to preach it
You're so hypnotic on my heart

The words you say to me are unlike anything
That's ever been said
oh what you do to me is unlike anything
That's ever been
Am I too obvious to preach it?
You're so hypnotic on my heart

So since you wanna be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
you to stick around
I'll see you everyday

Oh, this is the start of something good
Don't you agree?

Community Service day today! Spent most of it enjoying the wind and singing songs with Cara, RJ and YunQing. Nice(: When the kids finally came, oh man. They were the cutest. Really. 
<3
Then I went out with Janice and Sophia and then went of to meet someone else. Arrived at school half an hour late, burst into LT2, shocked a few people, said sorry and walked meekly to LT3. Elections! It was inspiring, I believe that this batch of WD elects will be very able to lead. 
JANICE AND I NOW KNOW SHERRYN'S DEEPEST DARKEST SECRET D: (Yes, we did say we'd blog about it.)
I promise I'll announce it to the world if Sherryn doesn't lend me her Mika CD :D Oh, joy.

AND.
My phone batt died on me. So did my brothers. So did my mum's. We were stranded. Haha, so I used Janice's phone to call her dad. Don't laugh, Janice. I'm sorry! Haha, I'm really blur now la. I tried to call your mum too. Man, totally embarrassing. I promise to try to remember to charge my phone? Haha. Okay.

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
'Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

This may be hard, but you know you'll always have support(:
People are hear to listen and people do care. Yeah, you should know.
And like I've said, God's will is pleasing and perfect. 
And He will always provide a way, even when there seems to be no way. 
So no worries yeah? :D

Friday, July 13, 2007

HARRY POTTER :D
With Shaun W, Huixian and I-zack. Jo, Marie and her friend priscilla were there too, but they didn't watch it. Anyway. Shaun and I-zack found it disappointing, but I was pretty much stunned through most of it. The action is good, left me dizzy after. I-zack complained that the kissing scene wasn't long enough though. Whatever. Haha. Cho isn't even pretty and HP is not hot.
I think my posts are getting shorter and shorter. Hmm.
Haha, anyway. Things have been getting clearer. There are many things I don't need and alot more things I shouldn't be upset about. Must be the sea water from yesterday's wakeboarding or something.
You know, I get it. Some people are just who they are. Sometimes it's just not worth waiting or hoping. I know it's time to get up and move on. You know, listen to the explicits (namely ____), nod and smile. I just wish I was____ ___ _____. And that ______ will not _______ to __ _______ they're ___.It gets to me, you know.

Can't wait to read the last book (:

Thursday, July 12, 2007

WAKEBOARDING TODAY.

Haha, it was waay fun, but a little humiliating. I kept crashing, but it was worth it. Staying up there is tiring. Haha. Everyone should go try(: I had Sophiaa, Jacq, QiaoWei and Fiona in the boat with me. I think I got a better tan, yes, I think I have. Haha. Yay.
AMANDA, JANICE, Ting, Sophia, Erik, Tracy, Ruth, thank you so much for supporting me! You know you guys rock.
MAN. Who's done the dushubaogao thing? Haha. I know I haven't.

&tags:
WenLoong: 8000 word, you mean. Haha, nah. Do a word count. I wrote all that in camp! Haha. It's all very emotional yeah.
Ash: Yeah sure, haha. You're big too(: Oh, you can turn off the sound. Click the toilet paper.
Hx: I didn't really get a tan right? ): Haha. Still chinese.
Erik: No way! Haha. You know Raffles's just totally insane. Cheer up k? (:
Zek: Haha, my cousin's just so endearing. So long as you're joking, zek.
Leonard: Yeah, it wasn't much(: I can't wait for next year.

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

We could sit and stare at the cruelty of it all.
We could stop and hurt at every pain we feel.
I choose to find a way to laugh at them.
It's better to find a cure rather than to mourn.
I will be dirt free.
Flowers will bloom in the desert.
We still live.
Tainted child, learn well from the consequences.
No more will you be the joke.
No more the fool.
Jesus take the wheel.

Friday, July 06, 2007

OBS OBS OBS!

MAN. I MISS CAMP ALREADY. I have a headache, but i wanna go out tmr! Someone ask me out, quick! I'm too hyperactive to slack at home. And goodness, I am tired. Haha, I came home and went onto the com straight away. Even before bathing. I just missed this com. MSN, and my phone. Basically, I missed civilisation. 

Oh, hey, I just created a friendster account. I know, I'm like, 5 years late or something. Haha, anyway, add me if you know me yeah? ADD ME.



Yeah, I know. Terribly small, click to enlarge.
RA-RA-RAFFLES!

That's totally insane.
Ouch!
Slow and steady.

Ah B#%S%drghew34c I have like 4612452 bites now, and it resembles rashes. Like, the really bad kind. Grah. Annoying crap. Oh well. Still fun.


Okay, I did my blogging/diary writing in OBS, so here it is.

3/7/07
The day before, I couldn't evem imagine coming to OBS. It was just so foreign, but now, it's real. Everyone wants to go home. I've learnt that if you just get something over and done with once, you don't have to do it again. I hope that we can stop complaining, stop giving up and move on. Complaining really brings down the whole team. Perseverance is key.
You know, it's really hard to adjust to this. Esp since it's a 5 day thing and this is only the secongd day. Yesterday was supposedly slack, today we're kayaking a long long time. So yeah. I can't imagine what the rest of the days will be like. I know everyone's survived it before, so I guess I believe I'll make it through, I pray we will.
Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified of them because the Lord you God is with you. He will never leave you nor forsake you. -Deut. 31:6


5/7/07
Yesterday was basically re-learning all the kayaking. We did rock climbing later on. Rock climbing was an experience to remember. First time ever. I climbed 12m. I couldn't help but get quite frustrated up there because I really didn't know where to go and which rock to climb. It's really addictive and very satisfying once you reach the top. Anyway. was kayaking, the sea expedition. My partner was Tracy! We travelled more than 15km, (about 20km) to our destination. Round island trip. Seems little, but it isn't. We were rowing against current and wind. The seas were choppy, the Sun was glaring. Tiring. We took 6 plus hours to reach the campsite. Ate alot of food along the way. When we reached, I saw a rainbow in the sky. It reminded me of God's promise I thanked God for keeping us safe all this time. He really provides. We're still more or less okay. Everywhere is hurting though. Everywhere. My skin's hurting, but we're still alright. We're going back home tmr. Of course I'm looking forward to it. I want a good bath and a good bed. And company. I miss all these, but yes. We will survive this trekking, the land expedition. We will be able to get to our campsite. Then we get to bathe. Ugh.
Also. Far East told us something.
We may not always be the best, But we can always be at our best.
Encouraging.
We will survive!

6/7/07
Today's the last day. It's sad, but it also comes as a relief. I'm still hurting all over. Sigh. Yesterday was the trekking. It was unbelievably tiring, painful and itchy. We were carrying really really heavy bags all around. Plus 26 x 1kg heavy pochos, 26 x 1kg waterbottles, 4 x 2kg sort-of empty jerry cans and 4 x 5kg tents. Heavy crap. Ah. But we were persevered and we helped each other. It was a good time of 
learning and experiencing. I can't even count the number of 
bites I have now. Yeah. And we were absolutely relieved when we reached. 
Then we pitched the tents and ate and did the 
night reflection thing. It was dark and 
we walked thorugh the jungle in pairs. Later, 
we climbed through a tunnel. Yeah. 
The super super small one. It was an experience 
for me because it was 
1. underground 2. small 3. dark. And I'm 
slightly claustrophobic. I couldn't stand up, yo. 
But yeah, we came and conquered. Wasn't that scary.  We were supposed to think of 3 people we want to thank, 2 people to apologise to and 1 prmise to oursleves. I really have to thank alot of poeple. Sherryn, Tracy, Ily, Sohpua, Yikai, Naikus, Hieu 04, Hieu 05, Hang, Hnah, Estelle, Della. My whole group. And of course my trainer, Faiz. And God, most definitely because He brought us through this. Yeah, and I was impatient with alot of people, so I'm sorry to them all. My promise to myself is to perservere through the hardest times because I know that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. And of course, I promise to be more responsible too. Yeah. I'm glad I had the opportunity to go through this. Can't wait for next year's!




"The closer one gets to the top, the more one realises that there is no "top"."

"The same sun that melts the wax hardens the clay."